Here's sweat in your eye...

So I did it.

And by "did it" I mean ran.

Ok, maybe not RAN, but I jogged/ran. It wasn't as slow as a jog and wasn't quite as fast as a run...whatever it was, it was exactly what i set out to do today and it was awesome. Even though I completely and totally SUCKED at it, the fact I tried and DID it is all that matters to me. To me success is measured by the goals I am setting for myself. Some might say "huh, you barely ran, you looped the block three times, that's nothing". 

To those I say stuff it.

The goal was for the first time in my life to attempt running/jogging on a street, outside, with the trees and sun and birds and cars driving by...and i did it. The majority of the blocks I walked at a fast pace, but for the cumulative total of nearly one of those blocks, I ran.

The goal is to be able to run atleast one mile of the 3 mile walk/race for lung cancer awareness on October 20th. That is my goal. That is what I will work toward. For not only myself but for the memory of my beautiful mother Paula, who LOVED to run even though she rarely did. At the end of her days on this earth, when cancer was consuming her physical body, in her sleep i would see her legs moving. When she would awake, I'd say "mom, your legs were moving"...and she, with whatever strength she had to speak would say "ohhh...i dreamed I was running...it was wonderful."

For her and for myself. I will do this. I will set this goal and accomplish it. The physical body is more strongly linked to the spirit and the mind than I ever realized. I'm not going to go get all spiritual on your asses in this blog, we all have our own beliefs. Something I respect and value. There is no right answer, there is only faith in what you believe....so how can that be wrong?

All I know, is over the past 5 weeks I have never felt more clear minded, peaceful and at home in my own skin than I do now. Its a gift. A gift that I feel the desire to share. So many fitness blogs I find talk about "getting skinny". They don't talk about your well being as a person. They don't talk about the value of feeling fit and feeling empowered. I want this blog to talk about THAT.

There is of course the aesthetic benefit of getting leaner, I won't deny that. A dress I wore a year ago fits so much better than last year and yes, that's pretty rockin'...rockin' in a big, fun, girlie way.

Lastly, I have decided to title this blog entry "here's sweat in your eye"...because for the first time ever, I ran and worked out hard enough that I literally sweat in my own eye.

And I laughed. It was awesome. My mom would have loved that story.